Dear Little One

Week 17!

Today I am in dire need to hold you. I had thee most vivid dream about you. It was one of those dreams that kept going, even if I woke up then fell back to sleep. In the Dream I was in labor with you. I had you. Then I took you home and snuggled you, fed you, rocked you, and showed you off to my family. In the dream you were also a girl. Thee most precious and sweet little girl I have ever seen. Just writing this down makes me recount my dream. I vividly remember them placing you in my arms. Love at first site. You and me.

 I can't even begin to express my feelings of love for you already. Especially after I have dreams like that. It makes my heart ache and long to hold you. Even if you are a boy I am still just as excited and anxious to have my two precious babes in my arms, You and Hayden. I am one very lucky and blessed mama.

In other news. I had my kidney Ultrasound done on Tuesday. It went very well, and I am glad that they actually found something. It makes me feel like I am not crazy after all. In my Left Kidney they Found a couple of Kidney stones. In my right kidney they found cysts, stones and Hydronephrosis. I actually had the Hydronephrosis with your brother as well. We will visit the doctor next week and go from there.

One of the exciting things from this ultrasound though was seeing you of course! I had a student in training doing the ultrasound and then a supervisor watching his ever move. They were both curious when I told them I didn't know the gender yet. So they casually moved the probe up to where you were. We saw a direct butt shot, but you were being quite modest and keeping your legs closed as tight as possible. Want to know why I you were a girl in my dream? Well, besides that fact that I have pretty much thought you a girl from the get go, apart from a few weeks of confusion. The ultrasound techs both thought you were a girl! We didn't see anything sticking out (if ya know what i mean). They also said they weren't very good at it, and that it was just a guess. I saw it too. Hayden was also a girl at first too so we will see. We find out in 6 days! I can't wait! Excitement is an understatement.

Other than the kidney problems things seem to being going just fine. I am really starting to feel you kick and squirm. I feel like I have popcorn popping in my abdomen. I can't wait to be able to see you move from the outside!

Life is just wonderful. I can't even begin to explain how grateful and how much love I have for you Daddy, Hayden and you. I am thee luckiest girl in the world!!!

Keep Growing Little One, Stay Safe!

Love always, Your mama